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Post by .-<(B.1.6.6.E.R.)>-. on Aug 1, 2009 13:47:32 GMT -5
A Testimony
what got you on a path to seek Knowledge of Self ?
when did you notice a transformation ?
i first got a taste of the teachings when i got back from germany - i think it was 1986 - and my brother/friend was in the Nation of Gods and Earths - and so was majority of the children in the area - i was about 13 or 14 and he was telling me that the black man is god -
we were in the steps eating, it was a holiday maybe thanksgiving or christmas - and we had big plates - the usual negro plate -
ham, macaroni and cheese,stuffin, etc...
he started throwing his ham down the steps -
so i was like whats up, why'd you do that-
he said he don't eat swine
from there i started to question - and i never went back -
before then, i wanted to marry a white girl so that my child would come out with straight hair and light colored eyes, mainly blue eyes - i wanted hair like john travolta in Grease - cause they made it look so cool when they combed their hair and danced to that weak ass music -
super man had that curl in the front -
jesus had long blonde hair and my moms loved him
there is more - i'll add on later
what got you started ?
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WARPATH
NEOPHYTE
The Man with 7 Scars
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Post by WARPATH on Aug 1, 2009 18:41:01 GMT -5
My journey started at a young age.
When I was young I went to my uncle's sweat lodge in Wounded Knee. There I had a profound experience.
From there I struggled with my mother, because she always use to send me to church and bible school. As much as I tried to learn, I hated it going. It was wednesday nights, I could've been watching unsolved mysteries.
All of the mysteries I could have solved.
Anyways.....
I grew up in the city, so it was very rare when I could practice my culture. My mother insisted that I go to church. So I was filled with non-sense that came from different sources.
There were the Christians, and the super-superstitious dogma that they created to keep people like me away from my culture.
Then in high school, I started hanging out with gangs, getting into a lot of bad shit that kids do. Then I pumped out a couple of children. I was still fucking up. Until I learned my girlfriend was pregnant with twins.
My world changed. I knew I had to be 10 times the dad I was. I had two kids already, but now I needed to step up my providing game.
I was working a tough job, delivering water across the reservation ( by this time I had moved back ), I had seen a lot of poverty. Stuff I grew up around, but the people I came across, were living in probably the worst conditions in America.
When I was in a horrible truck accident. This truck flipped and rolled. I survived with barely a scratch.
People say I got lucky. FUCK THAT. Luck had nothing to do with it. The trajectory I hit the side of the wall, I knew I was going to die. You know they say your life flashed in front of your eyes? Well every thing I didn't accomplish yet flashed in front of my eyes. The fact that my girl had two babies in her belly is what I thought of. I said three words "God save me."
Fuck Jesus. God saves.
So I'm alive. Dead man walking. My brother died this year in similar kind of accident. It haunts me to wonder why he- a kid that never hurt anyone in his live would die, while I lived.
So I've been struggling, inside. I know people have to die but why him? I've been around a lot of death in the last few years.
But now I'm getting off topic.
After my accident, I started on my path, committing myself to my culture. It's been tough. But the journey has been well worth it. My children are healthy, I have an awesome job in the community still helping with the struggle, and I'm enlightened to a lot of shit.
Still with all my knowledge and power, I struggle.
I struggle with alcoholism. Not as bad as a lot of people, but a struggle none the less.
I like to puff the chronic occasionally, maybe once a year.
I'm in the technology industry. I can hack any network that i'm on. ( couldn't have said that a year ago )
I have over 17 body piecings. I got the big dipper on my chest.
My Lakota name is Charging Soldier.
This is who I am.
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Post by CIVILISON on Aug 4, 2009 23:43:00 GMT -5
I felt a sense of "God" ever since I was very little. Both my parents were religious and spiritual people. As a little kid I used to wonder about god's omnipotence, omnipresence and omniscience and how "god" could exist in everybody's soul as my parents would often tell me.
at around 7 i got infected with mononucleosis particularly liver inflation which could have had fatal results as doctors would tell me. right then i found a deeper meaning in life knowing people die of diseases all the time. i prayed very deep throwing myself in deep mental states at a young age.
I always had a scientific view of the world used to like studying in school as a young kid, i used to like memorizing knowledge. with time i began to dislike a certain knowledge and got directed or simply intuited a need to study ancient religion. a noticed an evil world at a very young age and knew that something else matters because the world seemed to be in so much troubled that something must have went wrong that people must have strayed away from something that at some original point made them righteous and peaceful.
At 14 somebody i looked up to intellectually and spiritually told me that eating pork causes disease and mental impurity. then it hit me how all my life i did not like consuming red fleshed meats so with no particular struggle i quit eating pork. after being ridiculed by many people for this i began researching into nutrition and natural health. this opened up ways to higher sciences for me that being bioenergetics, ayurveda and further to toaism, buddhism and chakra science and other traditions of the east.
from this point i was spending a lot of time with poor righteous teachers absorbing much fundamental knowledge, wisdom and understanding for self from learned sciences and concepts they would introduce me to. i have to say this opened up a big chamber in my mind.
after this my brother shyheim built with me over the email and on the old forums and blessed me with the science of the ancient Egyptian teachers. i delved into it and found much help on my spiritual path helping me find the "intellectual" answers i needed to unblock my "spiritual" centers within self.
all throughout this time a lived a real life living in 7 different cities in europe and canada traveling, working, observing people, the world, the system and testing my learned philosophies on my flesh, bone and spirit and conclude from all mental evolution that from the moment i was conceived i had an ultimate purpose and that purpose translates itself through the happenings i described here and much more. i performed many different jobs as well ranging from health advice to logistics to carpentry.
so in conclusion i would not point to a specific point in my evolution that opened me up rather would say its the totality and the continuum of it that always sharpens my blade. i want to master my craft, i struggle also and strive for perfection on a daily basis.
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